I feel your fear, enormity of the challenge, mental energy. There will be good and bad days. Write the journal, it might be more your busy mind making you feel this way (not helped when both partners in similar positions!).
If I’m reading between the lines – you’re hustling and I think you have the contacts. Its just the energy to keep hustling, distracting from the real paid work and not your natural comfort? Is there a person within the fall out of media sales that you could team up with, not employed by you, but perhaps there is a cut somehow?
Would I be right in thinking, the solution you are really looking for exists is the longterm sustainable idea (there’s only so many hours you can charge yourself out for!). I’m with you not this. Maybe it will bubble to the surface over time if you can create some structure for your goals, needs and the new order that is arriving. I’d love to chat when you can free your time from the hustle, as keep thinking the same thing (there are a few short term also I can add – but lets talk). The changes happening in this category will evolve into something else. Food and wine are in the hearts and minds of people (although there will be fall out, and you need paying customers!) 021654926